Sarah Beth

So maybe I should have waited until april 4th- two years would seem to have more symmetry somehow than one year, eleven months and five days. Where did March 8 go? Where did February go?

Four weeks until I am a graduate with a Ba. I think I may have wasted some time here- I may not be as far along as I would hope. Maybe sometime soon I will take stock of everything that has changed over the past four years or eight years. In an odd moment of coherent balance, I found my music recorder today and found myself hearing myself three years ago. Little bit trippy, to tell you the truth.

Actually, it does seem fitting that I return to livejournal on such a note. It is half past one of the morning, and I cannot sleep in my bed that seems at once too big, too hot and too lonely. There is a person shaped absence for the next month. I find the question of dependence to be interesting. It's bad, yes- to depend on someone so intensely, but it's not a bad thing to want someone. What a fascinating historical shift. I find it so interesting, how the nature of relationships must have changed to get to the 50% divorce rate. Man- so fascinating listening to music I wrote in first year. I was I guess really different? I can't help but feel that I've lost something.

THE RULES

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle/Random
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

6. You are obligated to add five categories at the end that you feel have personal relevance to you. Rules 1-5 continue to apply.
7. If you can read this, you should post it with your own answers. After all- it's exam time! Who wants an awesome excuse to waste time?!

SOUNDTRACK OF MY LIFE

Opening credits
That's What I Like- Blackie and the Rodeo Kings. Very upbeat- but that's the kind of soundtrack I'd have. Those bastards would think it was a comedy!

Waking up
Brothers In Arms- Dire Straits. Holy crap,I love this song! I haven't listened to it forever. But I wouldn't wake up to it, really. I'd lie in eyes shut, cozy bliss. Hmmmm!

First day at school
Everything's Alright- Jesus Christ Superstar. First day of... kindergarten, right?

Falling in love
William Butler Yeats Visists Lincoln Park and Escapes Unscathed (live)- Phil Ochs. Yeah, that's pretty much the most romantic ever. HATE THE MAN!

Breaking up
Tragedy- Brandi Carlile. I didn't even manipulate that one, my hand before the lord. How beautiful!

Prom
Black Day in July- The Tragically Hip. Two things. First, YES!! Second.. why did the break up happen before prom?

Life's ok
Oh My Love- Inara George. Grey's Anatomy Music!

Break Down
Tell Me It Isn't True- Bob Dylan. Kindof a mellow breakdown, really.

Driving
Majik of Majiks- Cat Stevens. I'm driving a VW van, and I have a hat. A ridiculously floppy hat. Oh, and I'm driving 17km under the speed limit.

Flashback
Concerto for Two Guitars, Andante- Vivaldi. I like the nature of this flashback.

Getting Back Together
No More- Tom Petty. OH YE GODS OF THE ITUNES HAVE SMILED UPON ME!! hehehe
(waits to listen to the whole song)

Wedding
If I Catch You Crying- Blackie and the Rodeo Kings. One of my most difficult to listen to songs, strongly attached to a funeral. For a wedding. The iTunes gods have a sense of humour.

Sex Scene
Motorcycle (Significance of the Pickle) Song- Arlo Guthrie. Asides from the terrible pickle image, not a bad song. I don't really want to think about what kind of sex this would be, though...?

Birth of a child
Proud Mary- Creedence Clearwater Revival. Not gonna lie- Jenna's No Good Deed was better.

Final Battle
Louie, Louie- Kingsman. Uhm. FINAL BATTLE DANCE OFF! hooraw!

Death Scene
Maybe Sometime- Jim Cuddy. Oh, that's a really beautiful song. I'd be okay with that.

Funeral Song
What Good Can Drinking Do?-Janis Joplin. Seriously, that's fantastic. Three guesses as to how I died!!

Dance Sequence
King Kong Five- Manu Chao. YES! dance dance dance dance dance!

Closing Credits
Brick- Ben Folds. Awwwww.... I think I need to add a couple categories here.

how about a little....

Sulky teenager song
Last to Know- Blue Rodeo. Not really? Kinda emo, maybe?

Going off to college song
River- Joni Mitchell. Sarah MacLachlan just didn't kick this as hard in the face.

Midlife Crisis song (or menopause. Or both!)
Rebecca's Lament- James Keelaghan. Oh, this is a sad song about an airplane crash. Oh dear.

Does God exist? This is the artsy part of the film.
Kielbasa- Tenacious D. "......." Officially speechless.

Divorce. (Why not?)
A Sorta Fairytale- Tori Amos. Oh dear....

I am going to be in Calgary from March 8, later in the evening, until Sunday the 11th, if anyone wants to make some awesome plans. TRON.

Strangest feeling today. Actually, very interesting. I remember how it felt last time I was here- the desperation, the sadness and now it's completely different. I'm relieved to be back. I'm my own person. I don't have any responsibilities, except the ones that I pick. No siblings to contend with, no dinner to cook unless I'm hungry. I know I'm about to get smacked with a shitload of work- one of my classes has 70 pages of reading per week- and that's one of six. If all of my classes have the same workload, that's 420 pages a week. Of academic material. Blaaaaaaaaaah....
I'm sitting in Erik's room listening to some tunes, and waiting for him to get back from class. Geography something something. My face feels a little too warm- the bottoms of my pants are wet. Here comes the rain again I guess... It's so beautiful to be back. It's beautiful to be with Erik. We are going to run down to Starbucks in Caddy Bay when his class is done at nine for coffee and dessert.
Life is good!

sb

Put down your things and rest awhile
You know weve both nowhere to go
Yeah, daddy had to crash
He was always halfway there you know
And no, I dont pretend theres any more of that
They say one day, youll look up and laugh and hear

The same sad echo when you walk
Yeah, the same sad echo when you talk loud and clear
Its the same as the same sad echo around here

I promise you this winter
I will worship you like gold
And ride your train forever
Electric fortunes to be told
And I dont want to question or even celebrate
All the joy you took and then gave back too late

Its the same sad echo when you lie
Its the same sad echo when you try to be clear
Its the same as the same sad echo around here

Well, I woke up right here
In a pool of sweat
With a box of pills and you
Yeah, and Im gonna keep my head
Im gonna keep my cool
Oh, Im so in love with you
Yes and in another world nothing was like this
There may have been a girl
There never was a kiss

The poison came in liquid
She was naked all the time
And no one could explain it
It was all between the lines
And I dont seem to trust anyone no more
It could be faith Im just not sure

Its the same sad echo every day
Yeah the same sad echo another way
When you call
Its the same as the same sad echo most of all

Well you just got tired
You just gave in
You took it hard
Then you just quit
You let me down
You dropped the ball
You fell on your face most of all
And I dont want to mean anything to you
I dont want to tempt you to be true

Its the same sad echo comin down
Its the same sad echo all around in my ears
Its the same as the same sad echo around here


I am so sorry that I keep dropping the ball. I just- I want this to be over, because slow drawn out goodbyes suck. So if I'm avoiding you, it's because I hate saying goodbye.

I think I have a place to live!!

THANK YOU BABY JESUS!

Also, I'm in love. Not like silly love, but actually devoted, you sound sad so I'm flying out, but I have other reasons too, so I can justify it sortof, but mostly because I'm sad because I miss you and I want to see you again....sort of love.


My IQ actually just dropped. I'm blaming hormones.

But seeing as school starts again in...26 days, and I'm going to be leaving again, who's up for karaoke? This time, Kolyn and Mark and Andrea and Lauren (+1- cause I want to meet him, and i PROMISE I'll be nice.) and Bekah, and Amanda- cause you haven't come with us yet, and I read your lj all the time and haven't talked to you in foreverness, and Tron and kir and bri and Sarah! (waves!!) and everyone who is in town MUST COME.
Them's the rules.


ta... 2000 word essay stalled at 1750. Due date? Tomorrow.

I really wish I had someone to tell- but I'm not looking for a volunteer. If I thought there was someone I could tell, I would have told them- but there isn't. I guess there are people I could tell... who might understand why I think it's important- I guess we'll see if I end up telling anyone at all. Definitely the technically stupidest thing I've ever done- which is fantastic!

In other, less enigmatic news, Erik made me sick,my essays got procrastinated to a point of suicidal stupidity, which I am now attempting to rectify, and my next task is to find a place to live in Victoria in January. Strangely, I seem to have procrastinated that as well, and am running out of time.
GLARG!

-SB

We're on, children! 7 or 8ish on Saturday, feel free to bring an instrument for musical love, or food or what have you.

Please call me if you have any questions or anything. The hot tub is functional- going outside to get to it will be COLD. But feel free to bring a suit!
-sbeth

So, everyone! Is anyone free this Saturday evening? I'm thinking perchance a gathering at my place, with music and other merriments. So please let me know if you're free, or if that sounds like a spectacular idea, or when you would be able to come!

-sb

I'm a terrible person. I apologize.

Due to modern technology, I am able to fix this grievous error.

My first favourite CD that I played way too much and danced around the basement to scene (also refered to as the 'discovering passion for music scene): Real Love, the Beatles. My absolute favourite- why does no one know it?

Sympathetic friendship scene: Who Wants to Live Forever, Queen.

Also- i want Pieces of the Moon at my funeral. And it's my funeral, so I get to pick.
I'm surprised no one has made up their own randomly awesome scenes?

-sbeth

I shamelessly stole this.
Actually, I shamelessly stole it before deciding that random is good, but choice is more better.

If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack look like?

Opening Credits/Pre-Show: Let It Be, the Beatles
Birth: Morning Has Broken, Cat Stevens
Adorable childhood montage: Sara, Bob Dylan. I know... how adorable would anything be when listening to Bob Dylan, but you can call my parents on that one. I was going to choose 'Sarah Beth Has A Loose Tooth', by Tom Chapin, but there are degrees to which even I will not sink. The Rascal Flatts one isn't making the cut either.
18th Birthday: If I Catch You Crying, Blackie and the Rodeo Kings.
Falling in love for the first time: What Can I Say, Brandi Carlile.
Sad heartbreaking overly emotional someone hand me my Oscar please scene: Tragedy, Brandi Carlile. I get to put her on as maaaaaaaany tracks as I want. Cause I'm the boss. In a far more awesome way than Bruce ever was. I might (since this would be a very long scene)also include Blue Rodeo's "What is This Love" with Sarah McLachlan.
Inspiring recovery scene: ....uhm, yeah? Quite likely Two Thirteen, by the most amazing and incredibly artistic duo to ever skip enough classes to get kicked out of PDA!!! BOOYAW TWINPOWER BAMBOOZLED!
Musical scene: (this is my life.I get to decide) I Dreamed a Dream, Les Miserables
Dying Scene: Always Look On The Bright Side of Life, Monty Python.
Funeral Music: Tears in Heaven, Eric Clapton. I know, I know.But it's classic. And I love it.
Ending credits: Sorry Signs on Cash Machines, Ben Kweller. I think I stole that from someone who will possibly be using it also. But that's how I roll!!

Now you know the drill. My insatiable desire to poke and pry into your personal lives forces me to demand that you all reply. Quickly. Because reading your livejournal entries is the only thing that prevents me from working on terrible terrible essays. I beg you!

-sbeth

So this is how the story went-
I met someone by accident.
It blew me away... blew me away.
It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and my pain,
And buried them away- you buried them away.

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done-
And wake up to your face under the morning sun.
But like everything I've ever known,
I'm sure you'll go one day.
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away.
I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away.

I dropped you off at the train station,
And put a kiss on top of your head.
And watched you away- I watched you away.
Then I went home to my skyscrapers,
My neon lights and weighted papers
That I call home- yeah, I call it home.

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done,
And wake up to your face against the morning sun.
But like everything I've ever known,
I'm sure you'll go away.
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
And I can spend my whole life hiding my heart away.

I woke up feeling heavy hearted,
I'm going back to where I started
Morning rain, it's morning rain.
And you know I wish that you were here,
But that same old road that brought me here
Is calling me home, it's calling me home.

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done-
And wake up to your face under the morning sun.
But like everything I've ever known,
I'm sure you'll go one day.
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away.
I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away.


So, I met this boy.
And I'm pretty crazy about him. And it's wonderful and terrifying and comforting.
And Brandi Carlile is the most incredible artist evar.

I walked across a parking lot with a long brown wrapped parcel in my arms. The Hummer was in front of me- he braked to let me cross the road. I smiled at him for stopping. He smiled at me for smiling. I smiled because of what was in the parcel.

Dear Team,

Complications! Y'all (mostly) live in the NW. So I'm now thinking... let's do the NW! I'd love to go somewhere with karaoke... any ideas? This is a bit last minute... sorry! I just got back from Delta on Monday, and there have been complications since then. But I'm still hoping this all falls together! So hopefully I'll hear from someone about an awesome karaoke style bar where we can celebrate birthdays and more importantly, friendship.

Loves,

Sbeth

Hi everyone!
Sorry I've been remiss in supplying more partay details... just got back from Delta... which was INCREDIBLE. So yeah. I will be working on this for the next couple days and I will let you know as soooooon as I can! I really hope to see you all there!

much loves,

Sbeth

How does August 26th sound for a celebration? It'd be for la 20TH BIRTHDAY! Cause I'm old. I'm thinking the Soda downtown... apparently it's a good one? Lemme know if you're free... cause I want to see everyone. Especially Jenna and Jess and Kate and SANFORD and Mark and Hayley and Lauren and Paul and Vee and Russ, and Amy too. And Ozon, and Kolyn and Bekahbekah! You crazy U of L people... if you're in town, be there! And Darcy! And Anna, and Bronwyn... maybe I should have planned this earlier. I'm going to Van for the rest of the week, but next Saturday! Lemme know!

Love

SBeth

How does August 26th sound for a celebration?

Hey everyone!
Strange, strange week... not gonna lie. Basically, the most awesome part is... I'm writing a column of angry rantings of a sort for Mark Limacher's site.... so go check it out! *Shameless self plugging*. The first one is all about glorious existentialism, and watching the world going to hell on a handcart. The link is http://www.marklimacher.com and it'd be awesome to hear some constructive criticism, or comments or whatever.

-Sbeth

Hey guys,

Hope your summer is going well. Actually, I'd love to hear what everyone is up to this summer, what they want to do, what they have to do, stuff like that.
Also, I have no idea how many of the people who may or may not peruse this journal have graced the southern climes, but my dad is thinking of going somewhere sunny over Christmas, so I'm doing some research. Mexico? Cuba? Dominican? All inclusive? If anyone knows what the hell I'm looking for, I'd love it if you'd let me know. The requirements would be (and this makes me smile) 6 people, 3 of whom would love to be a million miles away from human civilization, one who needs people to live, food available at anytime of day, alcohol preferable, a gym for high level training, various activities involving inventures, and nearby shopping. If perchance there happened to be a gun range near this paradise, so much the better.

For some reason, life just seems to be better when I'm not at home. Disasters always happen when I'm here.

-Sarah Beth

Hey everyone!

I need to ask a favour. There's a bingo that my family has committed to on Wednesday but James is working, Mom's in court, and my dad is also working.... and so we need a replacement. Anyone, pleasepleaseplease? My dad is paying $200 bucks, it's from 4:30-midnight or so... which is sucky, and the work will suck too... but you can hang out with me and make a couple hundred bucks. Tempted? Anyone? You do have to be over 18, but that's the single requirement.

Help me please! Undying gratitude!

-SBeth